Monday, 16 January 2017

Errands, location scouting and lunch dates

And then there are good days. Errands, location scouting, lunch dates, and long drives.

Then there are days like today where everything fits just right, everything ran smooth and I got to feel like my old self again.

Today I felt like a dreamer and saw a glimpse of the future I wanted with you-uncomplicated, happy and filled with more love than our hearts could bear.

Today felt good, it felt natural or maybe I still have to many hair pins stuck in my hair but on days like I don't hate you and the connection I once had with you feels temporarily renewed.

For a little while on days like today I don't remember the hurt, anger and disappointment.

I felt free.
I felt happy.
I felt vulnerable.

Today love didn't feel so heavy.

Still healing, still growing

Tuesday, 10 January 2017

A Year Of Healing

It's the beginning of a new year again, it's the beginning of the third new year I've not felt like myself. Yes, I've allowed myself to suffer through three years of struggling with pain, heartache and emotional numbness.

No new resolutions of trivial things for me this year though. No boasting about the small amount of people that entered into 2017 with me. No dire need of expectations either.
No, this year for me, will be about healing. Rediscovering myself again- 
Finding peace, love and happiness. 
Regaining strength, inspiration and passion. 
Restoring my faith, self love and self confidence. 

This year I will try to cover my heart in love and not darkness.

This year will be about letting go, moving on and acceptance. 
This will be my year of solitude and growth.

I hope some of you will follow me on my journey through my very own happiness project. 

Who knows, it just might work in bringing back my peace of mind.